Today was a VERY hard day for me. I thought me working today would keep me busy and I wouldn’t even pay this day any mind. But I was SO wrong. Suffering at its best is what I call it. I THOUGHT I was at peace with it now, I think to myself often “welp, life goes on...” “she’s gone, what can you do?” I’m STUCK. I’m living a nightmare. To come home from jail to news like this KILT me inside. Soooo many times I physically wanted to die because of it. And still do feel that way at times. The reason being is because it’s TOO painful TRYING to live here on earth WITHOUT you. I know I always told you I felt like you were a mother to me while you were here but I swear I feel it more that you’re gone. And I don’t understand it. I wish I had more time. I appreciate every last thing you ever did for me, taught me, brought me, showed me, gave me. I appreciate the way you loved me like your own.... I can go on about my pain of this but until we meet again know that I MISS YOU, I miss your smile, your chunky face, your non affectionate / affectionate self when you was drunk, I miss our jokes and outings. I just miss YOU. And I can’t wait to see you again. You’re the only reason I do good now. Because I wanna see you again💔Rest in peace where you are and continue to watch out for me down here please. I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS💯🍒
Every time I’m up late at night and can’t sleep I try to communicate with you🔮😌. So of course I go looking on your page again connecting with different memories and learning new things about you I never knew. It’s a sense of closeness. I always find new nice pictures of you too😍. This may even be the tattoo portrait I get of you. I’m finding it to be a lil easier now to think of you at times without crumbling and crying. Or talking about you and old memories of us without crying also. And I wanna tell you something- YOU GONE ALWAYS LIVE THROUGH ME! I’m forever gone post you and post what I want about you because it brings me a sense of closeness to you and some form of closure. I’m glad that I always expressed and showed how much I loved you while you were here. And I will continuously tell it to the world while you’re gone . I LOVE YOU BEYOND THIS EARTH ALWAYS❤️🙌 #AUNTKAYAH
😢😢😢I MISS YOU CherryBoop❤️I literally think about you A THOUSAND TIMES A DAY..... I don’t skip not one day. No matter how hard I may want to. YOU are ALWAYS with me. OUR FAVORITE TIME OF YEAR IS APPROACHING AND I CANT DO NOTHIN BUT THINK ABOUT ALL THE TIMES I WAS FORTUNE TO SPEND MY HOLIDAYS WITH A AUNT LIKE YOU......
HAPPY 40Th BIRTHDAY AUNTIE❤️🎉😘I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND I LOVE YOU. You would be livin it up right now @kayahcherryboop RIP💔
🎶NEW MUSIC ALERT🎶 Song Title: Dear Kyu❤️ Written & Recorded by: Qadiyr Anderson Video😍 done by: @kianne_blue_ special thanks to you for this captivating video. NO WORDS. JUST MY PAIN. MY STORY HAPPY MOTHERS DAY😘 @kayahcherryboop I MISS AND LOVE YOU MORE THAN I CAN EXPRESS, BUT THIS IS DEDICATED TO YOU🍒 #LoveYouMomma #DearKyu #Youllneverleavemy ❤️ #YouBeenThereTooLong #HappyMothersDay 🌹link in my bio for full song, full video on Facebook @qadiyranderson
#stayalivechallengeaccepted Everyday I fight to stay alive , Not with the thoughts of suicide leading to a human death but with the thoughts of my spirt dying and my soul living forever❣️we all have a story to tell. I’m tired of telling mine, I’m ready to live it🧡
You know I'm just really starting to get mad like... I been through hell on earth ever since I can remember. Starting with me being molested as a kid, and struggling through my years of life with that. To not being able to always talk in the way I want to, to not being able to properly express my anger and emotions. To finding myself to losing two loved ones that was a big part of me. TeddyBear & string 🕊, to having a dad be incarcerated for almost 7 years of my life at a very young age, to pushing my way through high school and graduating. To throwing away a scholarship to a college, to get locked up for the first time ever in my life and going to prison , fighting for my life in criminal cases at trial, only to find out that I came home to THIS💔‼️I'm OVER IT man. So over it it don't make no sense. When am I gonna catch a BREAK🤦♂️like why I gotta go through all this. God did the ultimate thing he can do to hurt me with this one right here. And I can't stand it. It literally makes me angry , I think that's why I can't cry no more. I really wanna slap the living shit outta somebody. Cuz THIS is NOT fair. It's really not and I'm just maaad man. God ain't have to hurt us like this with my auntie. My second mom. It still feels UNREAL to me. But I guess you where you want to be. 🤷♂️🕊😒💔😪 @kayahcherryboop you and god being selfish right now. But it's cool tho. Have your fun with your eternal life... You know i guess I'm just gon always get the short end of the stick 😒
Aunt Kayah I just don't understand💔😪HOW am I supposed to take this hit. This is hitting HOME. This just don't make sense to me it's just not fair. I miss you so much it's kicking my ass that I can't call you and just make small talk and LAUGH with you😢Aunt kayah you know I LOVE you. The bond I had with you is like no other. You were a GREAT person😍it's no negative trait or fiber in your body. And I don't understand why YOU Had to go. But I NEED YOU😪❤️please come to me. I need you more than ever now.
I'm still waiting to be pinched and told its just a dream. I can't even get no sleep💔😪God WHY?! You took my second MOM from me. She helped raise me and loved me like I was her OWN! If you knew my aunt kayah you knew that... Words cant describe the pain I feel. Nothing will make me UNDERSTAND why God removed HER. Of all people, why HER? The one that kept that family together. The one that will give you a shirt off her fuckin back!!! The one with so much LOVE to give.😪😪The one that was a MOM to me I just don't understand it. God if you loved me you would give her back to me. ❤️😪I just refuse to believe that this is my newest angel.
REVEAL👁: FULL VIDEO on Facebook. @Qadiyra Anderson on there. 🔥